Pre- Alaska Jitters!

SO... as of today, I have 43 DAYS left until I leave for Alaska!  As time draws nearer I am experiencing so many different feelings!  This will by far be the biggest step I have ever taken in my life, besides marriage!   The seperation is rather difficult, but I try hard to keep my head up and Brian and I continue to be great friends. :)   May 4th is going to be my last day of work and that only leaves me 18 working days left.  Eeeks! I have known all along that I am leaving but for some reason time flew by and this snuck up on me alot faster that I would have liked it to.  Its time to start acutally buying supplies and stocking up on the necessities for this to work.  Airline tickets are taken care of, thanks to some help from my wonderful parents.  Also thanks to my Brother in law Tom and my little sis I have picked out a cute little laptop and it is on its way.  Another little miracle for me is discovering SKYPE!  For those of you who dont know what it is, its a chat program that also has a web cam and microphone.  I was and still am very sad that I am going to have to miss my little sisters baby being born, but when I found out about this it was quite the relief to know that I will be a little bit closer to seeing my first Nephew!  Plans are to have Ashers and Tom call me with a time and we are going to try to SKYPE so I can actually see and talk to them and the baby!:)  YEAY!:) Not only that but I will be able to keep in closer contact with my family and not be at a total loss for communication :)  

Some of these feeling I have been having are intense enough to make me break down in tears if I allow myself to think about things.  It is SO hard leaving Brian.... Wether he knows it or not, I still love him.  He will always have a huge part of my heart, and not having contact with him for so long will be one of the hardest things I will ever do!   The point of me moving is for me to have the chance to fulfill some of my dreams, and give him and I a real true break to see for sure where we stand.   I have always wanted to travel around the world, working and living life to its fullest, so that is what I am going to do, and this will be the very beginning. :) 

I am anxiously awaiting my next paycheck so I can start my teadious shopping trips!  Wish me luck, and if anyone thinks of something I will need please let me know! :)

**Loves***Hugs***Kisses***
Kristie ;)